I Often Wonder

I often wonder how the stars above
Could allow me to fall for someone that I could never have
Somebody who’s already not free
And no longer capable of loving me

I often wonder how the sky could still smile
When my heart is breaking all the same while
When the pain is too much to bear
When life is cruel and so unfair

I often wonder how the flowers could still bloom
When my world is bleak and covered in gloom
When my senses are dulled and the colors gone
When I could neither face tomorrow nor could I run

I often wonder how the sun could still shine
When I have to accept the truth that you can never be mine
When my tears are dried up and I can no longer cry
When although I still love you, I have to say goodbye

I often wonder how all of these will end
Will my prayers be heard?
Or I’ll just have another broken heart to mend
I often wonder.

Macabre

Anger gushing like raging falls

Obstructed by blinding light

Blood-stained shards are scattered

Inanimate body kissing mist

Scream of sirens laying it to rest.

The Impostor

I saw you with that certain smile on your face
You were in a crowd so all I could do was gaze
I looked in your eyes and tried to read your soul
But all I saw was a deep, dark and endless hole

Somehow I knew what you were feeling
Having everything but still felt nothing
When you looked at me, I knew what you were trying to ask
If it is all right to always wear a mask

To not let others know what’s really inside of you
To hide and run away from your past too
To continue smiling even if you want to cry
Even though you know that it would mean living a lie

The show must go on is what they always say
So you should go out there and pretend to be gay
But this I tell to you my friend is true
You don’t have to be yellow and pink if you’re really gray and blue

IRONY

The Nothingness in deep slumber
Wind softly whistling a tune
Trees dancing with the fairies of the woods
Crickets gaily serenading
Moon gleaming like silver platter
Stars blanketing the welcoming sky
Leaves rustling, gently tracing every footstep

Knife plunged deep in my chest
Heart broken into thousand shards
Pain nigh unbearable
Tears racing down my face
Drinking the familiarity of this place
Embracing the memories you left in a jar
Wound won’t heal, there never would be a scar